The Work of Dog
I just reached home. And Its always my fault. It seems to be like that. I never wanted to do this. I was forced to do it. I did'nt want to go with my family but i was pushed out the door by them. I wanted to see you, but they would'nt listen. I hoped u would understand. I never wanted to mess it up. And i always don't have the chance to explain. And when i get to, it may be too late. Theres not much i can do. I really wanted to see u. I never asked for any of this. But God wants it to be this way so I let it be, but please understand me. Understand me and be in my position. I was forced to go with them and if i disobeyed my parents it would hurt u because u should noe what happens to me if I disobey. My parents have lost faith in me and u should noe that I'm trying hard to win them back. I really wanted to see u, I missed u so much, I never did anything wrong, i never made any mistakes, I freaking love u. I was forced to go with them. I never messed anything up, u always told me listen to my parents and not get into trouble and study hard, thats what I have been doing all along while waiting for you to come back to me and its all for u, I thought u would be happy. I so wanted to see u too you noe! I did not want to disappoint my parents so I listened to them. But in the end I was able to escape from my family and I called u and said I wanted to go to ur house even though it was 1am in the morning I was already walking from bukit panjang plaza to ur house and was on the phone with u telling u that I'm coming, but u said u were gonna slp. I really wanted to see u, but on the phone u told me u did'nt want to see me, even though I reached the front gate of Hazel park. I respected ur decision, but before I went home, I went up to the 11th floor and stood outside straing at ur front door. I wanted to ring the bell or call u but u said u did'nt want me to call u or disturb u, so I just stood there and was hoping some1 would open the door, I sat around there for about 30mins, I cried and I reluctantly took the lift back down and went home. It took quite a while for me to get home, I had no cash on me to take a cab, The bus services ended almost an hour ago at that time, so I walked until I reached the Caltex gas station at Old Woodlands Road when my Mom called and asked me where I was, I told her and she said she would pay for the taxi fares again, i felt guilty to disappoint her again I want my parent's trust back. But nvm its ok because I would do anything to see u and hold u and hug u again. I fucking miss u, why won't u let me explain everything. Don't you trust me? Baby I love u. I'm sorry. Its my fault I'm sorry. God probably forsakes me, so I'm sorry. I'm sincerely sorry . I sincerely love you. Please let me see u. I wanna see u. I miss u. I MISS U. damn it, I miss u....I love you.Im crying now. I shall sleep then. I miss u. When will i get to see that lovely face and adorable eyes of yours, Rosa.. When? I miss you. I will wait for you.
2:24 AM
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