I did not post anything the previous days.... cuz i was away out of the country for a camp... Im really exhausted and im still sick.. i cant get rid of this headache right now....its been there for the whole duration of the camp.. I just sent an sms to my girl... need her right now... havent gotten a reply....i hope she does... everything went very wrong yesterday... it was painful and regretful.... im definitely at fault... sad and depressing.....

Right now staring at the walls everything is blank. I could hear my heart pump so fast... I feel so pissed at myself..its empty... im just a shadow of my previous self... Now im downing vodka like no ones buisness..the soothing liquid, the heat blooms and caresses my throat, its my medicine cuz currently i dont have the cure.....the solution to all of my problems is to hurt myself.... I noe im weak but who cares about it now? I dont feel any presence of concern or worry from any1 .... so what if im sick?....I dont have the cure... i need her love.....i need to see her....i hate myself...


Rosa im sorry... theres nothing i can do to change yesterday.... i really am.... i love you no matter what happens.. now please just send me a reply that u love me too... its all i need....tears roll down......

The Work of Dog
8:29 PM

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