I'm finally back home! was back at about 5am this morning. I took a shower and dropped on my bed and slept. I just got up, its 2pm. The air was filled with delicious scents of fish and chips although i preferred the smell of mee goreng for lunch, my bros were preparing lunch---> fish and chips. I lay there flat on my bed, thinking about last night. WOOT! no words to describe it. It was sweet,lovely,cheerful and expressive, horny? emotional? haha up to you.



Well i think im going out again today, cuz being at home is so boring, i hate the cold air and i hate to see the messy house, when i always clean up,no one else does anything, but stay stuck on their computers. My home is like being locked up with some really damn strict old skool rules, it just feels great just to be away from home. To me its not home but just my room and my stuff and my bro Jon.




Im so sleepy maybe im gonna have a nap. im waiting for Rosa's call. I kissed her goodnight before she slept so soundly on her bed and also before i left for home early this morning at 3am.
Rosa was so cute when she was asleep, when she was finally asleep i kissed her at the cheek and said i love you and good night. She looked like a baby tucked in for bed, very cute and adorable. Im going out with you again today after work!




Im going out today, Love you Rosa!

The Work of Dog
2:34 PM

I've got so much stuff to right about in the 2 days or so.It was hypnotic crazy fun!! Something i truly missed for 2 damn weeks! And now that i have that fun back im gonna cherish it! Rosa came back 18 June, Sunday, yeah and She turned---> hotter! Her hair? ---> Neater,straight,lovely and sweet! I was able to get outta work to pick her up from the airport and damn was i really happy! i even gave her mom a real nice hug too! I missed her mom alot too! im so grateful to her! and of course i miss her mom's cooking too! Rosa said she put on weight but i didnt believe her cuz her curves are much more defined and refined!! After which , I helped them out with the luggage and we rode a taxi to her home and helped her unpack. She gave me a nice sweet gift and a shirt. I gave her a nice gift too and it was something she wanted badly for a long time.



Her house was the same as they left it, the only difference was that it was rather dusty and musty, and probably the kitchen was out of bounds for me and "i dont know why" ;)
After everything was in order, We just flew out and we had fun at town as usual, we watched the movie Cars, it was hilarious,very witty and clever. But something about the day wasnt right, cuz on that particular SUNDAY nite, was quiet and empty, just a few crumbs of people strolling along here and there and it was only 9pm, the atmosphere was boring as it wasnt crowded, this is the 1st time Orchard Road was completely silent and as a result the whole place which was supposed to be bustling with lots of activities and noise pollution made by loud people, that particular nite was overpowered by vehicle pollution. So after the movie we spent most of the nite and the early morning, just hugging,kissing and catching up on things. SWEET!




I crashed at her house, and the next day was where the real fun started. We went out again and met up with my bro Jon and his new sweet galfren. We were so bored again that we ended up catching another movie, Almost Love, which wasnt bad either cuz it was funny, romantic, cute and sweet and maybe a lil crazy too, cuz there was this really freaking sad scene during the movie and everyone in the cinema felt and gripped the sadness but in a rare twist, a hilarious line from the dialoge was said and everyone burst into laughter, the writer of this movie is very witty indeed.




After the movie we met up with Jon again and we hanged out at The Balcony for a while, had a few Margarittas while watching the Ukraine Vs Saudi Arabia match. 2am and we were, well, just high i guess, but we went to have some late supper and chilled out at Swensons and we ate the most expensive Fried rice ever in town, damn $11 bucks! we ended up talking crap with my bro Jon and Sofie<---- his galfren. And i found out that maybe Rosa and Sofie may be long lost sistas cuz they really had so much in common. cool...maybe we werent talking crap, maybe talking dirty perhaps?




Anyway, it was really late and we rushed home and i crashed at her place again. We spent the whole nite together and just having fun at her home, talking and then some. To sum it all up, the whole nite with her was exciting, fun, great and horny perhaps? and of course beautiful! After which we were freaking exhausted and she went to her room while i went to "my" room and just dropped dead on bed and slept till the next day.




And now, i just cant get enough of her. Rosa love you lots! Take care and dance well! Love you!


A beautiful world for a reason and without doubt, Rosa u are my reason, a reason of comfort and a reason of peace <------ Its all you! LOVE YOU!

The Work of Dog
1:23 AM

I woke up to the sounds of Green Day, Some of their Old Skool songs, it was still playing on my stereo, i think i 4got to turn it off, and Joel's legs were on top of my stomach, freaking heavy. I pushed them away, Joel did'nt wake, as motionless as ever, i scowled at him and i got up and went to the bathroom, but i could hear him snoring from there -_- . Looking at the mirror, i noticed that i looked better as in healthy, cuz yesterday i was very white and pale, but my hair still looked the same everytime i wake up, they were all around my head like some mutated durian except yesterday they looked liked antennas..



I brushed my teeth picked up the newspaper and started reading, i felt my chest to check if any attack would occur. I was surprised to myself that i could walk around now, cuz it was different yesterday, i was just stuck in bed and every muscle in my body was stiff. But now, I feel great! But i gotta take it easy, Rosa was in a mess when i told her what happened. Im really sorry for not taking care of myself properly. I hope you're fine. "I hope she's OK," my mind goes on and on, whenever something like this happens, i worry for her the most. I Love You and Im Sorry.




Oh,ok. Joel is finally awake, he zombily walks towards his computer and starts doing his thang.
Observing his hilarious moves and actions was like watching Mr Bean in a hangover, damn funny! Joel bumps everything and slips here and there, his face with no emotion just tired and blurr -----> Zombie! , well i could tell he was watching the World Cup match this morning, well perhaps its just World Cup fever.



I only stay awake for the Brazil, Italy,Argentina, Portugal, Holland and Spain Matches. Cuz they all play incredible and beautiful soccer. And perhaps i like watching the Koreans play as well, Asian power!!!!! Being half asian, staying in Asia and having an Asian heart, im so proud of Korea, GO KOREA!! Australia is progressing quite well too, the socceroos didnt dissapoint. And the tournaments most underachieving squad, Spain, have delivered results, thumping Ukraine 4-0 !! and thats where my other half comes from, XD! go Spain go! England? forget about them, they play boring soccer. They need Rooney to be fit or else they can forget about the World Cup, cuz im starting to get irritated with Crouch's horrendous robot dance. Rooney is by far the most exciting talent besides the likes of Ronaldinho, Kaka, Ronaldo, Crespo, Saviola, Messi <-------Mostly Brazilian and Argentinian players. Who will win the World Cup? my predictions are Brazil, Argentina, Spain, Holland, Italy and Portugal. Korea could cause an upset and i would like them to go all the way! I expect all of them to Joga Bonito. I guess i caught the World Cup fever as well.




Rosa, Im now Ok. Thx to your ur indespensable love, care and concern for me. I thank you and im really sorry. I love you and cant wait for you to come back. I need a hug. I need you most of all. Love You and take care. My world is beautiful for a reason. That reason is you

The Work of Dog
12:02 PM

YES! Everythings resolved! WOOT!


Today was just me recuperating from outside sickness... cuz i usually go out and spend alot of cash buying all sorts of stuff. So i was stuck at home, it does'nt mean im broke! I still have alot of money, but i guess i rather save it for Sunday. Cuz on Sunday its gonna be a big outing with Rosa! Anyway i need a break, damn im so sick but i still go out and on top of that, i always come home very early the next day maybe 3 am, 6 am?? And yes im still sick and that would not make Rosa happy, I would only worry her. So thats wad i did, slack at home and think of her.



So here i was, in my bedroom, looking at the wall, the bed and everything i could lay my eyes upon, her watch, my ring, her boxer shorts? XD! And I wondered what she was doing right now, "i hope she's fine", and i could recall that my mind kept on saying "i love Rosa", continously like there was no end to it. I could'nt even sleep well cuz i think of her all the time and always hope that she's fine and alright.



Lets skip the afternoon becuz it was more or less the same scenario as the paragraph above except the part when i was counting the amount of money left in my wallet and really admiring how much i saved from yesterdays outing. Either than that i was very occupied with my thoughts of her. Deeply miss you Rosa!. ok then SKIP!



In the Evening, We did quarrel about some misunderstanding and miscomunication, its got something to do with yesterday, its trivial and its a small matter and the quarrel burnt out and lost its flames and it turned into a nice smooth and decent chat with her on the phone. We were on the phone for 3 hours, and i still cant have enough of her, damn i just realised that i havent heard her voice since last Friday. I truly miss her and I love her no matter how much hardships we may come across in our lives. And yes, while on the phone, we were laughing and being ourselves just like its supposed to be and im happy about it.



And there's just something else i need to do, I must help myself, help my family, help Rosa, and help her mom. I noe u would'nt understand but now, being responsible is my goal now. I wanna make everyone proud of me. And this is the 1st time i had this feeling in years. But this feeling is much more refreshing cuz now i noe i have some1 there by my side to push me on.




Rosa I love you! I love your mom too! Call you later, I know you're staying up late to watch Brazil Vs Croatia. World Cup FEVER! So im out to place some bets with my Dad hehe and im gonna beat my dad!




The world is'nt beautiful but the beautiful people make the world beautiful therefore it is beautiful! LOVE YOU ALL! especially you Rosa! Beautiful world for a reason.

The Work of Dog
10:51 PM

I did not post anything the previous days.... cuz i was away out of the country for a camp... Im really exhausted and im still sick.. i cant get rid of this headache right now....its been there for the whole duration of the camp.. I just sent an sms to my girl... need her right now... havent gotten a reply....i hope she does... everything went very wrong yesterday... it was painful and regretful.... im definitely at fault... sad and depressing.....

Right now staring at the walls everything is blank. I could hear my heart pump so fast... I feel so pissed at myself..its empty... im just a shadow of my previous self... Now im downing vodka like no ones buisness..the soothing liquid, the heat blooms and caresses my throat, its my medicine cuz currently i dont have the cure.....the solution to all of my problems is to hurt myself.... I noe im weak but who cares about it now? I dont feel any presence of concern or worry from any1 .... so what if im sick?....I dont have the cure... i need her love.....i need to see her....i hate myself...


Rosa im sorry... theres nothing i can do to change yesterday.... i really am.... i love you no matter what happens.. now please just send me a reply that u love me too... its all i need....tears roll down......

The Work of Dog
8:29 PM

Im recovering at a slow pace.. buts its been improving... no more blood choking out.. my throat feels light and dry.. thx to the medicine...i woke up at 8am today.. and realised.. shit.. im late for skool... i dragged myself out of bed... my vision still blurred and dizzy.... it was as if i was drunk...the ice cold water nvr felt better.. my whole body was burning inside out.....the cold water pierced through my nerves and it felt great... i took about 45 mins to get ready.. hehe slacker...

and when i finally got out of my house.. it was 9am.. woot 1hr late... but while dawdling on the way to school... i realised all of my frens were only coming in the same time i was heading for the school gate! What a coincidence we're all freaking late WOOT!... Classes were surprisingly interesting..its been a while since i touched thick ink-blemished heavy exam papers... but i didnt do anything instead, I dozed off with my pen in hand, WOW! i didnt noe how i did that..... I was unusually silent.. maybe because im suddenly all EMO or just sensitive i guess..... I played around with my PSP for a while.. but negative and regretful thoughts running through my brain seemed to make me lose all toleration and concetration, its like some electric current jolting my veins.... i freaked out and i suddenly grabbed my stuff and ran out of class at 11:20am without even turning around to look at my teacher's surprised look or reaction.....it was exactly 2hrs before i could really go home...

Sweating and my heart pumping and gasping for air... I saw Fairuq he too skipped lessons and we chilled out at the infamous Doughnut... He had a go at my PSP and i was rather not interested to play any games and i knew Fairuq was enjoying himself but for me i just dreamed and looked at the dark rainy sky till Shahrin and CO. appeared... 1:30pm Treated them to Starbucks and we chilled there and had some fun trash talking while sipping our favourite selection of fraps... I would no forget that face of Shahrin when he ate a slice of lavish oreo cheese cake... he savoured the moment and he really took a long time to eat it... his face? Well see for yourself.. damn funny...

The weather today was pretty fickle minded.... at one point rain would pour mercilessly on us but it would suddenly stop and drizzle.... strange... its as if the weather has a mind of its own.. the strange subtlety of the weather....

2+++ pm... I went to help pay some bills at the post office... and at 3 i went to work... only to say hi and by to my agent while he grabbed a few shots off me.... and now im back home.. missing those fun and beautiful moments i had with you Rosa.. i hope you're reading this.... I miss you... Love You, Cherish You...

The Work of Dog
5:03 PM

I woke up today and off to the bathroom... My throat is killing me... i noe its bleeding.. blood just choked out of my mouth like some waterfall... i cleaned up and took some soothing medicine and some lozanges...and went back to bed...a few mins later i was doing some exercises and sipping some hot green tea i made....

I went online and yay i was pleased to see that Rosa was online...chatted with her for an hour sadly i was too weak to keep my eyes from closing... and regretfully went off to bed to get some needed rest.... I miss her....

When i awoke... everything was like some dream.. My head dizzy and everything was smokey.... and the floor sticky and all..everything was nauseating... i looked at the time..... the time nvr budged it just stayed at 7:26pm so i snoozed off but only to be awaken by some phony phone call mins later... and that shook me back to reality and i was in fact feeling worse.......

8:00pm ... that sheer excruciating pain on my head. something familiar and i will always remember it..... but its not the same.. This is just my body reacting to my painful throat and of course exhaustion...

And now im just bored and feel like writing something.. though its not interesting at least i dont have to talk about it anymore and 4get about today...

Well theres nothing i can do... all i can say is i miss you Rosa... i hope 2 weeks would go away soon....

Im out... and thin...i lost about
5 kg... maybe because im sick.. so i gotta force myself to eat stuff....ok my energy's drained...bye...

The Work of Dog
8:00 PM

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Pass National Examinations
Get out of Fajar
Change for the better
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